the perfect imperfection

2007-05-06T08:13:00.000-07:00

I've beginning to see a new direction in life...
where I leave and never look back.
I dreamt of two funerals on a same night.
Never knewwho and why
But the books of dreams spoke through my mind
with that high level of stress I've obtained
it's a sign for me to let go and the past and move on
I'm ready....

so here we go....

goodbye blogspot

hello xanga

the new home

2007-03-16T11:00:00.000-07:00

EDITED

I thank you for the bottom of my heart....

Baybee, Scribbles, Razzel, My family,

Ange, Chloe, Sean, Candice, Michelle,

Bao, Lulu, Audrey (sweet of you to msg from Torondo),

Aaron, Cern, Nicky, Sylvia, Amran, Jeanette

Cherry, Shikin, Becky, Egeria, Rosa

Joey's daddy, Kristine
Randy, Fel my bitch, Al, Sumi

Thanks for the thoughtful birthday wishes.

(Pictures up soon!)

Love... me

2007-03-13T13:09:00.000-07:00

Pop! goes my heart!
says Hugh Grant
and the adorable Drew Barrymore
The movie is an excellent escape for a monday!
with yours truly and baybee
plus ange and sean
Once in a live time seeing us actually catching a movie
on a monday night
in town
Truly amazing!
My parents are back in town today
Despite spending special 6 days with baybee
I miss my hommies dearly!
It's a week holiday... means rest my whole mental system
before it all begins again.
2 days to the big 24
aint looking forward to anything
I'm down with the flu bug..
What's new geting sick when the birthday comes.
Till then, waiting for photos photos photos..

2007-03-01T14:03:00.000-08:00

BATTLE OF THE JERSEY
*bleaH*
What's next?

2007-02-22T11:07:00.000-08:00

The new year holidays ended with a flash.
Not any happier, but sicker.
Despite the reasonable amount collected this year,
I send new year greetings to the doctor this morning.
With a bad stomach flu this new year
what can be good.
Was browsing through the 4D numbers last night...
and how lucky that baybee and I missed 3 sets of numbers.
With my lucky number being 3 and baybee's 9.
Let's cross and fingers and hope for this weekend.
I'm stuck here at home finsihing my 5 assighments due next Friday
while my little ones are fast asleep.
It's no wonder how fat they are now.
Their daddy's off at work, sounds like a typical solebread winner!
Was listening through Jappo music sponsered by Randy,
Thanks... sounded weird yet it kinda nearly put me off guard my work!
*P/s: If u're single and avaliable, I can match make u with Randy*
Anyway, thanks for the conversation last night, yes yes...
I will find you a chick when I actually find one for u!
I'm in such temptation to watc dvd now!
But I've been neglecting my work that it's killing my last minute brain cells.
Plus, additional load of driving! This year's gonna be great!
So well, hopefully I get time off to upload those pictures..
Happy Thursday!!!!

2007-02-17T13:55:00.000-08:00

GONG XI GONG XI
Having a major rush with the new year and coming due assigments!
I've only managed to pull through two events of shutterbugs.
Weddings and birthdays coming up soon!!!!
and of course.. a little peek into my birthday gifts!
*Winks!*
Happy new year

2007-01-30T18:49:00.000-08:00

Greetings to all! Many apologizes for the lack of commitment to this blog especially after the new year.
2007 is a busy busy time for me. I've been stuffed up with work and school, it's no wonder how many can juggle the two perfectly! Well, school's been great. Too many thesis arguments, drama lessons and too many books to cope with!
Thanks to baybee's neverending support and TLC, it all goes well without a doubt.
A big promise that photos will come soon, very soon... from lil chill out sessions, cousin's wedding, to farewells to Audrey and Serene and last of all the recent event close to my heart, my dearie sister's wedding that happened last Saturday. Phew, what events that moved along these two months.
And of course, no surprise that Valentine's day, Chinese New year's coming and yours March as part of my birthday celebration. For the rest of the events, we'll take it as it comes. I'm really happy that baybee's pretty much settled in her job especially when it's so so cloze to me! An inspiring graphic designer that I truly love!
A litle update that Scribbles and Razzel are doing great. Scribbles' having her first period, super duper manja with baybee and myself that is. As for Razzel, still the naughty baybee in our eyes.
Back to the television set while baybee makes her way back home! The two little ones are barking for my attention!!!
Photos up soon!!!

2007-01-02T00:55:00.000-08:00

SEASONS GREETINGS

*hugs*

Fa La la la la la la la la .......

2006-12-31T00:10:00.000-08:00

2006-12-30T19:25:00.000-08:00

Repeat after me...
You know Uno ( x 10 )

2006-12-27T16:52:00.000-08:00

2006-12-14T09:09:00.000-08:00

Little missy's been hit by the pre wedding cam shutters
"I see my bitchy twin" Do you?

2006-12-13T00:03:00.000-08:00

Missy's heading for a head spin
Terrible Terrible Terrible
While the heats kills and the curls are hot
It's no wonder
that ache pokes like the knife
It's an area you can't see
yet if you know what I mean
I'll fill you in somemore

Missy's in a dramatic mode today
Kinda funny yet kinda lame
Maybe tommorrow would be a better day
I like the curls, it fills my brain

Terrible Terrible Terrible
Something's upsetting came up
I prayed to God to make two people happier today
I guess God din see my message
Did he miss my mail?

I'm a day away of a wedding of a loved one
Missy's sister pouring her clothes on my bed!
Too many dresses...
Did I mention?
She's a Far East ADULT
or rather a kid at heart

Missing my heart one
There's somone out there who stole Missy's heart
She keeping it close and tight
and I hope she never lets go
Missy hearts this love
with that new hair cut
Awww... "You still look hot"

Missy's off to dreamland
in a weird craving for food from 85
This Missy's hungry!
Someone save me please...

I would like to forget the world
but
before I get too old..
I wanna see a garden that's bursting into life
inspired by "Chasing cars"

Ohhhh.. god
before I sleep
I hope you catch a glimpse of my blog tonight
cause...
I pray I get out of this drama queen suit
It picks on me!

2006-12-07T19:30:00.000-08:00

HappyFeetHappyFeet HappyFeet HappyFeet HappyFeet HappyFeet HappyFeet HappyFeet HappyFeet HappyFeet HappyFeet

"Nothing beats a morning drive to Cinileisure for a 10.30am date"

2006-12-07T09:15:00.000-08:00

2006-12-02T01:20:00.000-08:00

I have conquered EXPO in 3 hours
got everything from JL to IT fair

*satisfied*

cause I did the shopping with baybee..

*missing*

my dearest love

"Nothing in this world can stop us tonight"
sweet dreams

2006-12-01T10:18:00.000-08:00

2006-11-29T21:12:00.000-08:00

Because I got too lazy to do up everything!
Bear with me for the terrible update!

2006-11-26T01:40:00.000-08:00

When was the last time I had time to sit down at blog?
Well, ended the week with intensive drama, camp and whatever that came my way.
In the midst of my children's reports for this year end, decide to just update you guys a little here and there.
Yesh, Lala has completed her drama and theatre modules... and honestly,
It felt good being that drama queen for the two weeks back to back.
Almost everyday was performing drama and learning the insights of theatre.
Something I love yet begin to dislike evaluating with journal writing.
Nevertheless, I had baby's support and help in my confidence.
I'm officially a DRAMA QUEEN now.
Scribbles and Razzel have been doing fine... still growing and growing and growing
With the busy schedule baybee and I have, they just make our day when we come home.
Baybee's working at Sexpo these three days to earn that extra cash. Her dad and I are planning
to surprise her at work with the intentions of probably looking out for some kinky toys!
According to her..... kinky toys are darn cute.... decorative purposes maybe?
Speaking of which, baybee and I are spoiled by people who loves us...
yup! We received the Nokia N80 as a present. *Smiles*
So if any of you got 3G.... let me know!!! *grinz*
I know i owe many pictures for months.. the halloween, joey's birthday and many many more.
Up soon!! I promise... after I get through the 'no mood' attitude.

2006-11-04T09:02:00.000-08:00

S.A.T.U.R.D.A.Y
I've got a date
*excited*

2006-10-30T06:59:00.000-08:00

Listening to Marilyn Manson's The Dope Show
makes Lala feel doped
I've been facing the computer for more than 12 hours
and gosh
I'm beat
only surviving on my cold pills
my nasal spray
and baby's tender kisses
I'm spoiled!
I want more kisses!
Oh! come on Joker
Be my date once more for Halloween?
I promise I'll be the devil dragonfly this time

2006-10-29T06:26:00.000-08:00

With a little preview of what went on last Friday
The cam whores came out for a treat or trick
Too much make up
overdose martinis and beers
Geisha's up for a $1.01 bet
I've escaped all that white powder
and became a lil dragonfly fairy
and of course
Baybee's won that geisha bet
OH BAO!
that pure Geisha that was sadly deflowered
*grin*
Happy Halloween my dear Peeps!
it came too early
but
it went awesome
Photos up soon, after I finish my assigments!

2006-10-25T23:13:00.000-07:00

The desperate need of time
I've lost the battle
The weak body form and the mind
has shown no improvement
Where could I ever run to?
My love and my darlins are whom I live for
With love
My heart longs for my baybee right here, right now
Get well soon... I'll wait.
I feel defeated
by my readings
The pencil needs a recharge
thr ruler doesn't seem right anymore
God, help me.
I promise I'll be good.
love me
p/s: Razzel and I have become the new drama cam whores.

2006-10-13T06:27:00.000-07:00

With a little preview of Chloe's Sa bo birthday treat 2 weeks back
I found a dead end to this entry early this morning
I've been so busy with work, studies and yesh
falling sick once again
with terrible and unexpected individual making life seems
running away would be a good idea
My senus is back with a terrible revenge
that doctor gave up making me take medicine
instead, nasal spray twice everyday
seems to be working quite well.
However, the terrible haze has overpowered oxygen in Singapore
It's harder to breathe sometimes
Baybee and I were discussing about the skies of Aust
how perfect it was
and looking around us, I thought:
"where the hell is the sun and the clouds?"
I hope to head back soon, I know Scribbles n Razzel would love it there too
So well, weekend's here!
And somehow I think I've been bitten by the shutterbug virus
From a drama queen to a cam whore
how quickly people change their faces to face to world
*bleh*
I found myself bitchy once more
P/S: Baybeee.... I love you

2006-10-04T23:00:00.000-07:00

While everyone heads their butt to Zouk to jiggle the night
pathetic I am, stranded upon a pencil, highlighter ruler and a bloody thick book
Someone out there, tell me how to study
and
I'm backlagged with 3 activities that were not completed with my kiddos
I wished I never laid eyes
ON
that BIG activity book that filled up my theme web
that thick book on drama
*I wished I was the one driving next to you right now*
Creative drama makes Lala feel like a drama queen.
I CRAVE now
1. Hot passionate sex with my love *haha*
2. chocolates (plus number 1?)
3. Martini lychee
4. A mood to upload pictures
5. A night drive

Kill me, thrill me, amuse me
I'm just a plain drama queen

2006-09-29T18:32:00.000-07:00

It seems that blogging that begun a weekly ritual
The time each week seems short and short
and of course the lack of energy that draining me out.
This wole week was filled with events that can make one
either smile, be furious, tired or simply bored.
Take an example of an incident of the bag of coins
for another unreasonable individual
that baybee and I simply won't understand her logic and her personality.
Please please, before u treat the minds of other individuals
look at your own pyscho path.
Your actions = Classic.
As agreed by even another indidual.
*Stalker*
We can never forget that bag of coins
Mood now: furious yet coins make us laugh
Second incident: I've been to two of my orientation
and boy boy, having the dirctor speak makes Lala even more sleepy
especially on a Friday night
Mood now: Drained out and bored
Meeting up with bayee's ex collegues was interesting
enjoyed hanging out after the ahrd's day of work
Plus! I'm spending my whole weekend with baybee and the dogs
picking Larissa up from airport today
and
of course Chloe's little party on Sunday!
I'm off on Monday! Perfect simply perfect.
Till then,
I miss my dancing chick, candy gurlie, bao bao!
Tag me tag me! Where are all of you!

2006-09-23T10:42:00.000-07:00

I'm spending a quiet Saturday withMy darlin little ones
while my recent photos aren't coming in anytime soon from Chloe
I thought I left you guys a little something to amuse you this weekend..
*My little ones*

I've been officially piled up with a whole text book to read
2 assignments to hand in before my next class
I'm DEAD. I forgot the meaning of reading textbooks
Nevertheless!
Baybee's TLC would make Lala feel all better!
Update soon with baybee's birthday pics @Whynot.
Luff luff!

2006-09-13T22:57:00.000-07:00

I'm recovering from a terrible cough that comes and goes as it likes
Seems like cough germs simply enjoy domineering the vitamins that I consumed.
I'm bracing through another week of mad lesson plans: planning planning planning
I prefer the last minute rush that pushes my brain to think in a faster speed.
In fact, despite the recent 'unfortunate events' that happened recently,
I looked upon the cheerful msg by my dancing chick that:
"Tomorrow would be a better day".
Especially when you're going off to Europe right?! *bleah*
A suprise msg came through msg came thru last night!
And I'm so so glad you msged!
I can't wait to see you bitch! *winks*
Another 2 days of mild torture and HELLO weekends
Joey's birthday celebration @Whynot on Friday
It's a JD party *you would know what I mean*
Aim: Get my baybee dRUNK! *quoted from BAO*
Saturday would be quiet and peaceful with the dogs
AND
Sunday "HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LOVE!"
(With brownies and treats for Scribbles and Razzel wearing party hats!)
Ok, think I shan't look too far.
Waking up darn early at 6am aint my favourite time of the day
P/S: Hady's the next Singapore Idol,
I hate that Poser Leong fellow
(Aren't they all?)
I love what the bitch said last night about you.
My laughing stock, my amusement
Oh, why am I not surprise.

2006-09-11T23:16:00.000-07:00

2006-09-11T22:19:00.000-07:00

I hate geography from the very beginning I got my first text book in Sec 1.
The forest, and world earth and whatsoever just kill my brain cells in an instant.
I always had a better mindset in history, despite ending up in the arts stream..
and where do you find me studying geography? on my bed.
First day back at work took almost my energy for the day within 3 hours
I could barely tahan, bones breaking, mind stoning.
I felt disorganised, something was wrong.
What made me worry more was the fact that Razzel was acting 'weirdly'
7th month (A temple near baybee's place is on renovation) -
If you know what I mean and although we have put mother mary's pendent
on the both dogs, somehow it someway... 'it' comes to visit baybee's place.
No matter how freaky it might sound, I'm more worried for the dogs rather than myself.
I have such great urge to bring them to church and get the priest to bless them, baybee and me. I myself have not have a comfortable night for almost three weeks, I sleep with a rosary but i do wake up every instant moment I felt a heavy weighing feel in my chest (which means someone's around). I wish the 7th month would fly by soon, it never felt this way before.
On a brighter note, in 6 days, my dearest baybee would be turning 22.
A birthday gathering held at Whynot on Friday, boy! Can't I wait!
Who knows what would happen to the birthday girl... *ahem ahem*
The week after next, I'm coped up with work all day.
From science centre, phototaking, zoo trip, k2 talk, children's day celebration, my orientation for my bach course. Time oh time.. I hate time...
Can I kill time without knowing what is time?

2006-09-10T01:58:00.000-07:00

Snow Patrol-Chasing Cars

I am beginning to fear the word 'time', where we do not often realise the importance and speed of it. I'm rushing through my theme web for next month, last minute work seems to make my brain cells work a little faster than usual. I spent my day at baybee's, relaxing practically the whole day with the dogs. I need that peace, away from all the thinking and stressing. Destress is my weekend slogan. Baybee and I were just browsing through pictures of Scribbles and Razzel, and pondered upon the fact that 'they grow so so fast'. And wondering how the name Razzel came up? Go watch 13 going on 30, you might figure it out. I managed to catch singapore idol just now, and my my how awful Johnathan Leong sang our favorite songs. All these leong people, spare our moods and ears.
A terrible sight... and that leong singer is a bad insult to snow patrol for singing their song.
I'm off to another round at John little's sale at Expo later today. Need to get my butt's off this chair and sleep early for once cause baybee's picking me at 8.45am.

love me.

2006-09-09T18:18:00.000-07:00

Let's waste time

Chasing cars

Around our heads

2006-09-08T23:32:00.000-07:00

I got a little bored
Quiz would fill my time
My thursday and friday were spent at Expo
Bags were full!
From book fair to John Little fair
What is next?
Too much shopping: 10 story books, 2 bags,
2 footwears, 15 in total (of underwear and bras!),
3 boardshorts and 2 sets of bed sheets
Yes, baybee and I nearly went mad!
with at least 5 big huge bags
and before all this, we were at I.T fair last week
NO more Expo for me please?!
P/S: my loan has finally been finalize
Counting down once more....
my next whole term gonna get SUPER BUSY
Next Friday's baybee's early birthday bash at 'Whynot' and of couse a little party with the partyhats and the little ones @home.
I can't wait!
Lala's outta here!
I have a date with baybee and the little ones *tomorrow*
love, me

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.

Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.

You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie.

Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.

For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

What's Your Love Style?

You Should Rule Saturn

Saturn is a mysterious planet that can rarely be seen with the naked eye.

You are perfect to rule Saturn because like its rings, you don't always follow the rules of nature.

And like Saturn, to really be able to understand you, someone delve beyond your appearance.

You are not an easy person to befriend. However, once you enter a friendship, you'll be a friend for life.

You think slowly but deeply. You only gain great understanding after a situation has past.

What Planet Should You Rule?

Your Passion is Purple

Sophisticated and classy, you're a bit picky about sex.

You're more likely to be turned on by a fancy hotel room than a dirty flick.

Sex is fine enough, as long as it doesn't mess up your hair.

For you, sex is more about power and favors than actually pleasure.

What Color Is Your Passion?

2006-09-07T03:44:00.000-07:00

I hate the fact that it's already the wee hours of a Thursday morning
and in fact I'm left with 4 days to catch up with my work for the next term.
I'm dreading the hours of feeling wide awake
at 3.28am to be exact with ramblings of nothing much.
I was supposedly to be at zouk tonight, but plans changed.
So baybee and I had spent a very quiet night, with Harry Potter Dvds,
monopoly, our little ones, aircon and hungry tummies to breeze the hours away.
I had a little chat with a gf of mine of people who awfully 'think too much themselves', how promises are words, how characters are seen through actions and not how u want people to see them. You might think this is how you want people to see you, but otherwise, would people be on that right track of your 'desired' individual. It's funny how people concluded that one needs another to satisfy the ego in one and taking control in moulding that desired 'so called perfect self.
- heard so many conclusions, they all said the same.
Thanks Fel, it was funny concluding how those people.
Anyway, photos of my gf's tatoo up soon! I've lost in the the piles of files of pictures!
P/s: my babies are great, growing fast!!!! yet, very very naughty!
*like the mummy and daddy*

I have a terrible craving for 85's noodles and chicken wings. This is bad!
It's 3.37! What the hell am I thinking....
Baybee's already asleep and I'm terribly hungry with no dinner tonight!
A need to sleep without grumbling!!!
I miss my baybee and my little ones...
Nite.

2006-09-06T00:15:00.000-07:00

2006-09-05T09:08:00.000-07:00

2006-09-01T09:27:00.000-07:00

1st September where gifts filled bags, wishes pour in
a day I often find myself reorganising my worth as a teacher.
3 years in this line, with good and memories
aspires me to move higher to a more professional educator
setting my goals and dertermination from a different basis
and of course filling my experience files while I can
Why I chose this line?
Don't bother asking.
The occupational hazzard struck me hard one year in NP
and I made my decision to stay on this line.
I am glad of the gifts that I received this year
with all different shapes and sizes
I tugged back 2 whole big bags home, and still counting
The cards were the emotional words that touched me
of how special a teacher would be in the eyes of a child
Despite the many scoldings, punishments that are set upon them
They forgive and love you the same.
That's the best thing of being in this line
Your clients are the children
The many disputes, disageements, anger you or the children feel
The next day would be forgiven with great smiles
and a new moment with them.
I love my job and being one special individual in their lives
Happy teachers day to one and all...
You're super duper SPECIAL today

2006-08-20T22:00:00.000-07:00

Had a little discussion with baybee about our lives these days
How awfully tired as we rushed through 24 hours each day
This parenthood cycle has gotten us think about how fast we're aging
Next month would be baybee's 22nd birthday and what's in store
would be just a small family celebration with the dogs and party hats for them
We have put these two little ones on top of our wants in life now.
Despite occassionally feeling the urge to club, chill or even to shop,
we think twice about what they need, spending time together as a family.
We just can't wait to get the both of them healthy enough to head out with us!
These two days have been an 'errand running weekend'
with grooming for Scribbles that we are so pleased with
and sending Razzel back to the vet for a check up
more lab tests and results of worms worms and more worms.
But, we are glad and relieved that she's negative for Parvo stage.
Next week, baybee and I have decided to revisit some gay clubs with
Chloe and Jan.
GIRLS GIRLS, if you often why you never see those guys who are
GOOD LOOKING, WELL MANNERED, SOPHISTICATED,
MODEL LIKE, GOOD BODY, MATURED AND GOOD COMPLEXTION
Head down to 'Happy' at Tanjong Pagar
They are all scattered there 360 degress of your sight.
NO JOKE
Remembering my first visit over at the beginning of the year,
and I was utterly shocked to see the MEN there,
Gays yet gosh, I immediately found my answer to my question
"Where did all the good looking men gone to?"
I mean, UTT material.
I'm not utterly drooled by them.
It aint a pity to see them gay either.
They look happier being one.
O well, I'm off for a short nap.
My body's surviving on medication to live.
12.30am - Michael Buble on 18.
6.30am - up for work
I WILL SURVIVE THIS WEEK.
On a lighter note
**********

*My love, my sweet love*
bought and fed me lycheees today
*AWWWWWWWWWW*

2006-08-16T22:21:00.000-07:00

Baybee: "I always wanted a clouded leopard."

Me (Looking around the house and thinking to myself):

"HUH! I think I'll stick to my two lazy little ones"

XoXoXo

I've been down with the fever virus for 3 days
and
I swear the medicine attacking my brain cells
that even baybee's joining in my madness
I was a drowsy sleepy little girl
but my sweet baybee took real good care of me!
*Muacks*
TLC does everything to make a sick gurlie feel good again!

My love... my sweet love.

2006-08-13T19:26:00.000-07:00

In spite of the short week I had, seems like forever the week had past.
It was all worthwhile spending time with baybee and the dogs.
Kino book shopping, a little clothes shopping, doggie shopping
absolutely making up for the quality time loss ever since we got Scribbles and Razzel.
A shocking news just heard yesterday of the passing of my ex Literature tuition teacher.
Yes, no kidding. I begged my mum for a Lit and English tutor cause I did enjoy having Lit
as one of my subjects in KC. Back to the news, a petite lady with an excellent knowledge.
She fell and accidentally injured her head. The next moment, in coma... then gone.
Shocked and sadden by the news, I never knew it was so serious when I learnt she was in hospital. I'm in a state of perplexity to decide if I should attend the wake at their place. I have to admit, I've lost my courage to look into a coffin or to attend a wake of someone who influenced my life one way or another. I have fears, fears of memories of my grandma. I'm still mourning deep within me despite she has gone for almost two years now. I can never forget the sight of her lying on that bed, in that coffin, in that outfit, everything still comes back once a while. Hymns brings memories, photos bring heartache, visiting her and looking at her niche brings tears up to this every day. I know I should accept the fact that she's happier with God, but sometimes I feel her, when I'm cooking, when I'm reading, when I'm crying or even saying my prayers at night. I feel a comfort around me, a sense of security, a voice that goes through my head, that familiar voice that says: "When you don't know what to do or you need help, always say one our father and one hail mary. Mother mary would always help you." Never a day I would forget those words from my beloved loved one. I miss her.
I said my prayers for this ex tutor of mine, and I hope she rest in peace. Life's short in everyday. A simple fall, a run or even an accident may end a life of one within seconds, minutes, day or hours. Looking through 'the driven purpose life', I asked myself once again: 'What on earth am I here for?' I found faith and trust in god, and each time I fall hard on my knees, I pray for the strength to look around and be glad what I have in life. In this life, we came for a purpose, but what purpose does it make when one is unhappy with life? A friend of mine is going through a tough time with her life, in her lowest depth of her depression, not one could comfort her the right way. It brought me back to the times in NP, where I fell into my lowest form during my 3rd year. I'm thankful for good friends that believed in me, trusted me and pulled me back into believing myself again. I lost many good things in life, I lost people I once loved deeply. Someone once said: "Of the many things you blamed yourself for imperfections of love. It was their loss not loving you the way you are, accepting you and being happy with you." I understood the meaning of loving, and being loved in return, the meaning of a true sorry from a broken relationship rather than a sorry for the sake of it. Many break down and cry from relationships caught within, losing or not having the ones they loved most. I was once a victim, bitten twice. But what matter most was that I grew stronger in my emotional depths of my heart and I moved on. I moved on to a higher step of love, a more matured way of handing love rather than the past. Viewing and feeling the words of 'I love you' and 'Sorry' is so much different now. I'm glad things took a change, I have someone who loves me for me, and accpeting me for who I am and what I am.
Thanks baybee... you really make me happy!
For those who failed in love, lost love and haven't found the right love, I can never have the answer when you will.
But, who knows whether the right one is actually the one next to you now. It's a wonder.
Fow myself, I cherish time within my life, never know when I'll might be gone.

2006-08-12T13:05:00.000-07:00

WARNNG: I'm in for excess boundaries of keeping work aside
and having my time with the L word dvds.
This is bad, BUT.....
Despite not a creative storyline this time,
they never fail to disappoint me
Shane's getting hotter each time
and Carmen's body is amazing.
I'm outta here for a bookshop therapy
a lil date with my baybeee
XoXo

2006-08-10T23:36:00.000-07:00

I'm truly grateful for the two days of holidays this month
It's great being in the line of teaching, oh! school holidays!
With an additional day of rest, baybee and I took a road trip to Malaysia
Despite the fact of Singaporeans should stay in Singapore to watch the parade
I chose a day to get away with the guriles, away from this country
It's never my intentions to dislike this place, but i'm awfully beginning to.
With horrible drivers baybee and I met within a month,
and of course the standard of living, dumb prices/ fess increasing
Gosh, earning a living it's like paying for my life just to be in this country
I can't wait to get out once everything's being in place!
Well, the road trip to Malaysia was pretty shopping for baybee's home,
DVds galore (I got my l word season 3)
and a little light shopping for Nike sneakers for us.
Recalling back the ridiculous police fine that we got just for crossing a double white line
Nothing would beat the smell we got home when we left Scribbles and Razzzel home.
As many would say, getting a dog is not getting a toy.
It requires additional work of cleaning up, care and of course love
Baybee and I have grown to love these two little ones
and we know how much they love and
how they urge us to shower them with TLC all the time.
I've seen a different side of taking care another being,
how loyalty stands firm with a strong bond between man and dogs.
Although time is sufficiently spent on them,
it's a joy seeing a trick done successfully without treats.
They are my destress options that I turn to,
running, playing, snuggling and or just letting them bite of snatch a toy
Baybee and I felt too parentlike these days,
especially with paper towels, waterbottle, little treats, baby wipes!
Oh!, toys to bring along car rides.
I love these homely days with my darlins
and I simply can't wait for them to grow a little bigger
to fit into the Arsenal jerserys we bought for them.
Now now, don't I sound like a kiasu parent!
*stop laughing baybee*
My intentions were never meant to be motherly
I just can't help seeing my little darlins at times.
We tried taking a picture today,
which failed to capture a perfect one so far.
Enjoy this for now, taken during their supposedly undisturbed nap time
Avril and Joey: "come on!!! Smile another one, and another and another"
NONSTOP for 10 mins
Scribbles: "My parents are crazee, can I sleep now?"
Razzel: "I pretend to sleep, maybe they might give up!"

2006-08-07T23:42:00.000-07:00

2006-08-03T23:40:00.000-07:00

2006-08-01T20:51:00.000-07:00

Of late, I find myself snoozing off the handphone and would die for anything just to get that extra few minutes of sleep. I'm losing the energy to SURVIVE or even to make my body move an itch after work. I lapse the time difference between work and overworked, reality to stoning. Yes, teachers do STONE. I'm one fine example. Embedded at the back of my mind are work unfinished or even questioning my abilty to complete them before the deadline. It's one good darn reason why people never do wanna grow up, they lose their will to even have the energy to survive. Baybee and I are complete K.O as soon as we touched or lean near somewhere comfory, despite the fact she has the good patience to even read, play her palm top or even watch the TV. I'm glad I'm blessed with such a darlin who's so loving towards me and helping me in my work and of course with scribbles when I'm not around. By the way, we have created a blog together, will update as soon as baybee does her designs. I'm anxiously waiting for Scibbles to get vacinated by the vet, bringing her to the beach and spending some time away from commitments that I'm simply tired of. I need a break, a short break : to enegize and find my way back home in making my priorites on top rather them letting them hang along and drag it home. I hate dragging work home, it's a chore seeing them and especially when all one need is a comfortable sofa, a hazelnut latte, a telly with baybee and Scibbles. PERFECT! A perfect night that I would ease my sleep everynight. Having the 7 month around, I do feel the chills at night. I trust and believe and do feel much better when I utter my prayers in bed before I doze off, prayers do work and as a catholic, it's the chinese belief of seventh month I should avoid. But sometimes, waking up with scratches or with the feeling that you ran a whole long mile after a long sleep, make one think what really went on around you at night. Perhaps, it's time to stop thinking of such things and focus on more important substance! I'm looking foward to Saturday to bring Scribbles to the vet and of course to the furniture store to get some things for the room! My jigsaws are waiting to be displayed all over. Thanks for the Tinkerbel jigsaw baybee, I really love it. My one year has been unforgetable, with baybee spoiling me with a watch, a digi, a Tinkerbel and a football jigsaw puzzle, 3 Harry Potter Lego sets and lastly presented me with a half a carat diamond ring. *I'm blessed with bliss*
(If you're reading this baybee, you know what's the deal, next under 200). Muacks!
Pictures would be up soon... just find time to squeeze a moment of even uploading them!

2006-07-29T14:01:00.000-07:00

2006-07-29T02:35:00.000-07:00

Know ME, to know MYSELF
I find COMFORT in this song
expresses my LIFE in a different way
Know me, LISTEN once to what I need to SAY

Joseph Arthur- In the sun

2006-07-23T09:37:00.000-07:00

The laze bug has once again come into action
Lala's utterly lazy to even puttin new pictures on the blog
despite having an opportunity clearing my folders last night
This week has been awfully busy, with horse riding, museum visits
and loving TLC moments with baybee and Scribbles.
Our darling has just caught the flu bug, and my my...
the medicine cost more than baybee and I seeing a doctor.
Nevertheless, it was great bringing her on car rides,
meeting her new bfs at the pet cafe and well, and
snoozing right in front of the TV with her and baybee.
I had a sudden craving of redbull vodka, well it might perk up some energy.
I'm off for a little surprise for baybee's daddy
We bought him a Casio Camera, except we decided to take the camera away
and leave a SD card inside the box when we give it to him.
*Just adding some shock moments in his face*
which of course... my camera's pretty energized for more pictures today!
I'm dying for a trip down town.
With a crumpler pouch and the midsummer's nightdream's dvd on my hunting list
*Ouch* I can't wait for the payeeeee....
Till then, Happy Sunday!!!!!
*woof* Scribbles sends her love! XoXo

2006-07-16T22:57:00.000-07:00

2006-07-15T08:06:00.000-07:00

When was the last time I sat down and blogged
Blogging seems so distant in my life now
Honestly, I blogged for the sake of blogging and
keeping my babez updated on what's happening right here
A wide range of pictures all scattered around my shutterbug folder
where do I even start beginning putting them all together!
The work's been piling for a bit, and I found myself not in the shopping spree this week!
Despite the fact, I need to breeze my way through TARGET!!!
*yesh baby, I know you dislike that word now*
Well, just a quick update!
Baybee and I are going for a puppy hunt today!
exploring those shops and farms!
We are hopping to get a black mini Schnauzer
and with a kan chiong spiders 'daddy and mummy'
the puppy already gotten it's name! "Scribbles!"
and of course, we have already planned which pillow to buy
or even who's taking the dog for a walk!
*exciting*
Plus, school's starting in 2 weeks and hopefully I'm able to cope!
O well, doesn't matter, take each step at a time and do what's best for me!
For now, I'm just waiting for my baybee to wake up from her beauty sleep!!!!!!!
*We're getting a dog!!!* Yippeeee!!!

2006-07-10T01:33:00.000-07:00

F.R.A.N.C.E

to win

Goodbye to world cup

Hopefully my eyes would survive my Monday BLUES

the weather's been cold

my toes are aching from that dancing

Oooch... I'm missing my love

2006-07-04T16:50:00.000-07:00

2006-06-24T22:28:00.000-07:00

2006-06-20T16:57:00.000-07:00

Greetings Part II

2006-06-17T01:08:00.000-07:00

2006-06-07T03:30:00.000-07:00

I have a little friend
who's helpful and kind
She went all the way out
just to make Lala's shopping @Sydney a little easier

My friend, thanks...
You're such a sweetie!
Coffee's on me when you get back
that is if I'm back!
Winks

I have a little friend
and her name is Felicia.

I have a little darling
who's sleeping so soundly
I have to admit
I love to watch her sleep

My little darling
I can't wait for this honeymoon
and the next and the next and the next

I have a little darling
and her name is Joey

I have a little fairy
who's been flying so much
she flew in to have cofffee with Lala
and I simply loved it

My little fairy
glad that you passed
never look down on your abilities
You'll make a great teacher

I have a fairy
and her name is Emma

I have a bed
who's comfortable and soft
It has stuff toys on it
but, it's not being its usual today

My bed who only been calling me
in those wee hours
It kills to know how comfortable you are
I long to rest on you

I have a bed
and it doesn't have a name
But it sure knows
that's incomplete without its co owner

Sob
Can't time pass any slower?
Sleep dammit! I wanna sleep!

2006-06-06T03:30:00.000-07:00

It's finally a day away
yet I think the excitement has gotten me AWAKE..
TOO AWAKE I would say
Browsing through the websites for Sydney
It's beginning to freeze there.. and I mean freeze!
But nevertheless,
I'm almost done with packing with last minute hunting to do.
However, one thing I gotta really do now!
I need to learnt to SLEEP!
and really sleep till the sun's up
someone gotta get me outta here
OUT!

2006-06-05T02:34:00.000-07:00

2006-06-03T11:05:00.000-07:00

My hair is brown

and I love it
I soak in the pool today
and I love it
My wallet went for a little walk today
and I love to not like losing it
I snuggled in bed with baybee this morning
and I love waking next to her
I cried too much today
and I'm glad I woke to realise
A new computer screen stares at me
and I love this 17 inch
I have 14 books of evaluations to fill
and I love to write but not this
A big blue bag awaits me to pack
and I love to, despite it being too early!
I love aussie with baybee with me....
and I love not to come home.

2006-06-02T03:29:00.000-07:00

2006-06-01T23:25:00.000-07:00

2006-05-30T14:23:00.000-07:00

till then...

2006-05-30T13:28:00.000-07:00

2006-05-30T01:05:00.000-07:00

She used to look at you in a different angles
her inspirations, her strength, her knowledge, you
looking upon her tears that shed
were they all worth all this denial of pure discouragement
She find it hard to talk, breathe or even look
it's too hard now
patience and acceptance were her virtues
not anymore not with you
exhusted that she could no longer find comfort and support
She flew far, just to keep her from falling too hard again
Maybe she should have spoke, maybe it's too late now
She could understand the meaning of 'demoralised'
How could one make it all better once more
imperfection was who you saw she was
imperfection was who you made her to see
imperfection was all she could feel
How touch could never heal
How words could never hear
She was left to stand and not fall
sit and not walk away
But she chose.....
to walk away in tears
and never looking up once again

2006-05-27T09:25:00.000-07:00

Staying AWAKE for 20 hours is absolutely not a joke
with the fact that one had hardly ever slept the night before
The clothes stinked, legs ached, dry eyes
Even though one loved the last day of school, one hated it too

Thank goodness...

that one day of 26th May is finally over
one's officially on my holidays!
just in time for GREAT S'PORE SALE
such good timing right!

One's thankful for the many patience and encouragements
a love have given
despite the many days one had been on a grumpy mood
love still gave that neverending love
To love, with love

Planning the next few days aint that bad
I'm craving for a martini, chill out music
hazelnut latte, shutterbugs, a good massage,
a non stop shopping spree and a hug from love!

And I hope...

It begins with a lil chill out with the peeps tonight
A nice beach birthday for couzzin dommy on sunday
A home visit to kiddo's home on monday and tuesday
Clubbing @thumper on tuesday
A late revamping of my room from Tuesday to Friday
and not forgetting my evaluation reports
Weekends reserved for my love and peeps

In 12 days...

I FLY.... GOODBYE!

oh! I'm beginning to love holidays!

2006-05-26T04:07:00.000-07:00

4am
Sleepy
Grumpy
Disorganized
Braindead
Hungry
Rushing
Aching

I'm Screwed

I want my baby!

2006-05-24T06:10:00.000-07:00

I'm rambling here at the stroke of 6.
The wee hours of the morning has once been visited again
not because I'm in such mood of staying up
But waking up especially at 4.30am just to complete some left over work.

I hate last minute work
makes one feel so disorganised
but it's ironic, cause I work better and faster
I'm only a quarter done, and headline's on Friday
Dance tunes makes tired bodies more alive

I'm exhausted, with hardly any oxygen for my brain
my nose's been blocked for ages
that baybee say I'm utterly DEAF
A zip on my forehead aint making it any better either.

Looking at my desk, I can hardly explain
I wonder how I can ever pack or find my things
This June, I'm packing and revamping my little sty
with the aid of Singapore Sale!
I'm glad they invented a place called ikea

And so, I hardly slept but the panadol did wonders
I would know I'll be sleepy like a pig @work later
But I'm trying hard to open my darn eyes just for breakkie with my love
"Come one Avril!, get your ass off and bath soon!!!"

Counting down I'm off in 15 days
and never coming back, who knows
Well, a last chance to see yours truly
Thumper @6 June 2006
Any takers?

6.06am and I'm beginning to fall back to my dream
Had a dream just now that I always longed for
Simple, comfort, bliss and just nice
It wasn't too drama or a hassle

And I better get my ass off for my bath!
Breakkie with baybee always makes my morning!
*P.E.R.F.E.C.T*
and hoepfully, just hopefully
I last this very day!

2006-05-22T11:07:00.000-07:00

So little time... too much martini

I thought I saw the day was Friday despite the fast pace weekend
I woke up with a spinning headache. I figured.
Two nights in a row of martinis
How much is going through my head now?
I'm feeling a little sick
not because I know that it's Monday
but I never do know why
my throat's beginning to swell, my body's aching
my mind's fucking up!
Someone please tell me why
imperfection plays a big role to such anger
as the heart would speak
I felt that imperfection once more this week
it didn't feel good, it never did
Another incident made me think twice about my worth
how far would I be wanted?
Loss, questions, doubts and emptiness
I know I could have done better if I was given a chance once more
To add a lil discipline in my life
I re- registered my application to the uni
and accepted my loss of money in not giving tuition anymore
Looking back on 23 years of my life, I have to do something for myself
I feel sick and pukey. But I need to go on
one more week for the busy schedule to end
and I'm off to Aussie.
I can't wait baybee... you know I can't.
We've been so uptight and busy with our work
it kills not having enough time each day
I'm sorry for being a lil nag
or rather.....
screaming at myself
*hugs*
I pray it would be a better week ahead
Lala's needs a hug

2006-05-17T23:10:00.000-07:00

2006-05-17T22:11:00.000-07:00

The flights been booked
Anxious and excited!
3 destinations in all makes Lala happy
First stop: Baybee's home sweet home
Next stop: A long awaited visit to my bestie's Egeria!
and last of all..
Sydney: Our dream
As many mentioned it "pre-honeymoon"
I would gladly agree
We deserve it baby!
for working too darn hard these days!
XOXO

2006-05-14T22:23:00.000-07:00

Happy Brithday Mama
with loving kisses from down below
know that u're watching us from above
Remembering the old times at Macpherson
where life seems such a bliss
carefree and happy
I miss your cooking
your room, your smiles, your laughters
How you often made food to suit our difference indvidual tastebuds
and it's only especially for your grandchildren
As we cleaned her niche and put new flowers
there's never a time I looked at her picture without a tear
My heart's crying for the loss of my beloved
we often speak of how we wished she was here
right here, right now
My grandma, my love
U're truly missed
and always loved with the greatest love and memories
we share in this lifetime
Happy birthday once again
U'll be 89 today

2006-05-13T15:37:00.000-07:00

R - Roads, lost roads.
O - Oh! look baybee.. Oh! They have Mango?
A - Ashlee's Simpson's L>O>V>E jukebox's singing
D - Drive with an attidue, drive with UTURNs
T - The malaysia workers @Joey's... working late till 11pm.
R- Road trip to KL? *Joey screams!! "NO!!! Where's the U turn?"
I - I had Ben's and Jerry's for breakkie with Candice and Ange
P - Plazas' hopping! We conquered JB! NO A&W?
S - Shopping Dvds! Too many to count! We went MAD!

XOXO

I'm beginning to lurve little road trips
I love the cap and the skirt I bought
NO heels nor shoes...
BUT
the dvds were good enough to make up for the loss
I am offically an owner of all the seasons of OC!
and of course....
many more
Pictures up soon! Heading out with baybee soon
Be back tonight!

2006-05-11T00:50:00.000-07:00

2006-05-11T00:39:00.000-07:00

2006-05-11T00:24:00.000-07:00

2006-05-07T22:33:00.000-07:00

What a polling weekend
with over 50 plus shutterbuggies over just 3 days
It's no wonder why my pc's outta space!
*pictures will be up soon, I promise*
Friday's red birthday for the babe-o
A.N.D.R.E.A
Saturday's NON stop shopping spree @Far East
Sunday LAZE and DAZE with baybee
Lala's happy and contended!
Looking forward to this coming Friday's holidae
when Baybee and I would drive up to Malaysia!
*Yipeeee*
I can't wait!
For now
Mon, Tue, Wed - Tuition
Thursday - Rest!
Friday - Lil trip across the causeway
Saturday - Rest!
Sunday - Mummy's special day and my loved late grandma's birthday
Oh! I need my sleep now!

2006-05-03T23:56:00.000-07:00

XOXO
I can't wait

2006-05-01T23:55:00.000-07:00

The hours never felt so long
The Tim sum never felt so yummy
The rain never felt so good
The car never felt so clean
The slippers never felt so comfory
The day never felt so loved
Finally a day off with love
Nothing beats this, more than anything else
but you

2006-04-30T23:51:00.000-07:00

XOXO
the shopping kakis resume the shopping trip on Saturday
Destination: Far East
Motive: Part 2 on a Polling day
while the country votes, we shop

2006-04-29T16:22:00.000-07:00

The FRIDAY
*Lala's burnt from the sun*

#MY FRIDAY WITH THE 4 YR OLD KIDDOS#
Pancakes! Pancakes!
Yummy Pancakes!
Flip and Toss!
Prata looking pancakes!
Nevertheless!
We had YUMMY pancakes!

#MY FRIDAY WITH THE 6 YR OLD KIDDOS#
Train ride to Outram
HealthZone here we come!
The heat is on, hot hot sun as we walk!!
Thank goodness for my Dri-fit arsenal cap I bought
absorbs all that burning my head!
and of course, the stares I got on the train
with a compliment i got from this middle age guy
"Nice cap, you an arsenal fan?'
I smiled; "yeah"
He replied: "Good, can't find many of your kind"
I smiled, while my boss looked and smiled at me.
Not forgetting,
Corny jokes from my kid on a train ride
Corny joke one:
"Teacher Avril, you know?
If you catch a falling star and put it in the fridge
You'll get star fruit!"
Corny joke two from another kid:
"You know, Zac (who cannot pronounce Paya Lebah
and who came up from the starfruit joke)
said that if you take a train to Paya lebah station
and you alight at papaya station,
you get papaya"
Conclusion:
*Teacher Avril's speechless face*
What! I smiled!
"I love my job", as I thought to myself "what a corny boy I have!"

#MY FRIDAY WITH THE LWORD#
Yes! I'm a self proclaimed L word addict
that I can watch the series over and over again
Despite the third season,
I rekindle my love for this show once again
by watching the first season for the errr...
5th or 6th time
while waiting for my baybee to get home!
And as baybee walkes through the room door
she sees her gal sound asleep while the dvd plays on
'What! you and your L word!'

#MY FRIDAY WITH THE PEEPS#
While waiting for peeps to confirm
my awfully good plan with Candice
managed to get Bao bao change her last min cancelling plans on us!
Well, had a late dinner and a NTUC shopping for drinks
while our Sophia managed to get through those shopping bags
She deserves her utterly day off at orchard baybee!
Kidding Ange... we still lurve ya!
BING, BANG, BOOM
Blackjack
I never .... tell the truth game
'Drink, you drink!'
went the night!
too much Chivas, Vodka, Bacardi Gold and Ribenna
Plus Ange and my obsession to curl the hairs of the other peeps
with the new toy curler I bought! Haha!
It was a night, despite the tired eyes, tired minds
a wholesome laughter
BING, BANG, BOOM
how we do like the Singapore pledge action!

#MY FRIDAY WITH ME#
I'm richer thanks to the government
Goodbye to my bestie who's off on a plane
"I MISS U!"
My pay's in for a treat
Long weekend's here
Shopping with baybee as we plan!
I'm craving for Tim sum!
and
I'm craving for you, my love
Winks!

I'm outta here!

2006-04-26T23:00:00.000-07:00

Having medication still running through the blood
aint such a good sign of a good day
Thanks for my baybee dearest for taking care of me these 2 days!
*best sunggles*
*bringing me to the doctor*
*rushing home from work*
*rubbing vicks and powder despite the smell!*
*cooking dinner with me*
*tugging me in bed*
*buying chocolates*
*massages me despite the back aches*
*running all the way downstairs, just to get green tea for me*
and of course... showing her tender loving kisses!
My flu is ALMOST gone! but looking at the dizzy spells I had today
they made Lala not much a happy gurl. Bad flu! Shoo flu!

And so I'm back at work from the 2 days MC after all that showered love
My dizzy spells managed to get me through the hours
and at 4.30pm...
Lala: 'Hey baby, I end work already. Taking a train. What you want for dinner?'
Joey: 'Okay, anything baby!'

Making my way down to Tampines aint such a good idea in the rain
*sneeze* and *sniffs*
Despite the umbrella, I still caught the chill!
Walked around for a lil shopping trip *hoping to feel better from the flu*
Looking at the clock 5pm, I called...
LaLa: 'Hey baby, would you happen to pass TM to pick me up?'
Babyee: ' Sure baby, but what you going to do?'
Lala: 'Errr.. shop?' Hehe! Another excuse cure for flu.

So Lala hunts for a belt for baybee, saw many ah pei shirts and
nothing for herself! How RARE is that! But despite the so called
WINDOW shopping. I mananged to hunt down my LEVI's that cost
$149.90, which my baybee wants to buy for me!
Natural instinct: "NO!"
Plus, 2 skirts from esprit and a watch from Fossil.
Ashamed that I'm already an owner of 2 fossil watches and a starck.
I think I skip that buy!
*bleh* Save money for my sydney trip! Sale sale sale!
Counting down, which is a month or so which we FLY!! Yipeeee!
and not forgetting, I'm eyeing on a dress.

Baybee and I are looking forward to end of the month,
where pay comes, govt donates money to the poor bank accounts,
bills need to be settled, money need to be put aside
and shopping bags need to be filled, our shopping bags
although, I already have 2 new jackets for my trip.
I think I've gained an obsession for jackets!
Been eyeing on another Adidas! Shit! get me outta here!

Alright, enough shopping indulgence which I'll gladly pass
I can't wait for the peeps meet up drinking session on Friday!
It's been a while, ever since baybee's last birthday.
Dice, drinks, dice... oooohh..... that dice of sex
*where baybee and bao can rekindle that night!* winks!
Nothing bad, *no sex* for the lack of understanding readers.

10.55pm. I must be off!
Meeting baybee for a train ride while we set off to work!
Good night! Can't wait to see my love!

2006-04-23T03:19:00.000-07:00

Pardon my loss of dates! The post was meant to be 22nd and not 23rd!
Back to the sleeping nights where I simply dislike
it really disrupts my routine and my energy to do my work
Maybe the martini made me more awake
which I find it hard to comprehend that logic
I'm tired, it feels like working the whole day every day
till I get home about 10pm.
I need my holiday soon!
that I'm so looking forward to even start packing!
And of course, we're happy to get Candice and Bao to join us! *hopefully*
But nevertheless, baybee and I are heading for the mountains in Aust
for a week or two in June just to get away from this busy city
overloaded work and the high level of stress.
An escape route before I start my degree in July
can't imagine the amount of work I have to manage!
It's working weekdays for baybee and I now
that sometimes we find ourselves so caught up
with our own lives and lesser of each other's.
But we try to work around each other scheldule's,
especially baybee when she wakes up especially early
just to sit on a six Mrt stop trains ride with me to work
before heading off to work at Yio Chu Kang
My silly darlin! that's why I often feed her when I cook these days
which she often blames me for her 1 month lost tummy that she gained back
and sad to say she only took a week to put them back all over again!
I still lurve you baybee, just like the koala!
If only, koala was allowed as a pet,
I'll have 10 of them with a lil tree enclosure in my room!
A wishful thinking! Baybee thinks I'm mad!
First 6 dogs, next koala... what's next?
My computer just signalled a lack of space in my hard disk
which I need to upgrade soon due to my mp3s and photos
Speaking of photos, I need to develop some for work, school and for a special something!
Honestly, too many for me to start arranging in folders.
I'm almost reaching about 50 folders and still counting.
And let me tell you, within these folders have more folders!
Can you imagine?
Plus! mummy says 'clear your room!'
which means,
clearing my wardrobe which my mum calls it 'The mini Esprit store'
and my bags that I need to sort! (It's good to have a sister that we can share our bags!)
my desk that is so often filled with resource books and files
my dressing table! I need more ikea boxes for my necklaces and earrings!
throwing away old junk bank letters that I don't open!
Come to think of it, I honestly don't have time to do so!
thanks to internet banking
Oh well, I'll wait for the deepavali holiday to do those!
My coming Friday is booked for a drinking session
at baybee's with the peeps.
And while her daddy leaves for Aust on labour day,
will be spending some quality time at home with her
*think we need to clear your room too baybee!*
And speaking of Aust, my bestie's leaving on Friday
for her short trip! boo hoo!!!
I'll miss you!
*hugs*
"Everything will be fine, just the way we want them to be
cause we create happiness and sadness
we control laughs and tears
when we say everything will be okay
it would be, cause it's all within our reach of control"
I'm finally beginning to yawn
better tug in soon
the morning work awaits me to complete!
I can't wait for my trip!

2006-04-22T23:49:00.000-07:00

2006-04-22T00:08:00.000-07:00

And so on a Saturday morning
when the throat dies on you
and the exhausted minds absorbs the energy you hardly could ever feel
What do you do?

Who last:
1. Slept in your bed?
:: my pup puppy, dolphin, and piglet and me!
2. Saw you cry:
:: can't remember...
3. Made you cry:
:: the thought of my grandma
4. You shared a drink with:
:: baybee and a coke on our lovey date today
5. You went to the movies with:
:: baybee for 'the wild'. Awesome cartoon!
6. You went to the mall with:
:: just with baybee
7. Yelled at you:
:: baybee! for wanting to rub her swollen toe!
8. Sent you an email:
:: My cousin!

Have you ever:
1. Said: "i love you" and you meant it
:: yes!
2. Gotten in a fight with your love:
:: yes, once a while
3. Danced naked:
:: after a shower when the music's grooving, or one of those 'nights' winks
4. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day:
:: yes, I'm famous for these kinda dreams
5. Had an imaginary friend:
:: yesh! next to me!
6. Do you have a crush on someone:
:: Shane from L word ever since season one!
7. What book are you reading now:
:: trying to finish de vinci code
8. Worst feeling in the world:
:: when you always thought you were in the wrong, but yet you find out
someone's been lying and cheating behind your back.
9. Future son's name:
:: kieran
10. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?:
:: yesh! 3 of them!
11.What's under your bed:
:: my floor!
12. Where do you stay?
:: Eastern side of Singapore
13. Do you take illegal drugs:
:: Nope!
14. Do you drink?
:: Yes.
15. What are you most scared of:
:: thunders and lightings, driving on a heavy rainy day!
16. What clothes do you sleep in:
:: singlets, shorts, old tees...
17. Who do you really hate:
:: don't believe in really hating, dislike, annoyed, disgusted more likely.
18. Do you have a job?
:: yes, and I'm loving it
19. Do you like being around people:
:: yesh!
20. Your belief:
:: What goes around comes around, be careful before it hits you

STUFF:
1. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with:
:: Shane!? winks! sorry baybee you know I still lurve you!
2. Have you ever cried over something:
:: who doesn't?
3. Want someone you don't have right now:
:: I wanna snuggle with baybee.. sense of comfort is necessary at 12.15am!
4. Are you lonely right now?
:: Not really, just that my throat's killing me
5. Songs that are stuck in your head a lot:
:: baybee and my song( you and me by lifehouse'), don't cha by pussycatdolls,
'currently 'this old man' which I taught my kiddos for a week, have you ever seen the rain by CCR, the best i ever had by gary allan, collide by howie day, all i want by Toad The Wet Sprocket, not myself by john mayer and many many more!
6. Do you want to get married:
:: yeah!
7. Do you want kids:
:: of course!

FAVORITE
1. Room in house:
:: Bedroom
2. Music:
:: Hear what my nano plays...
4. Band:
:: countless!
5. Fastfood:
:: BK

IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...
1. Cried:
:: no
2. Bought something:
:: I paid for my rented dvds!
3. Gotten sick:
:: soon soon... I feel the throat sore
4. Sang:
:: currently yes while typing this
5. Met someone new:
:: nope
6. Missed someone:
:: my baybee

My date with baybee was awesome
catch 'the wild' if you can
another around of shopping tomorrow in town
before meeting the gurlies we haven't seen in ages
Weekdays never felt so tired for baybee and me
wokring late, sleeping as soon as we head home
weekends are precious
so is the beauty sleep we often need
I think I need my massage from my sex guru
Shoo sore throat!

2006-04-16T23:09:00.000-07:00

And look what it snapped within a car ride with baybee...

2006-04-13T21:20:00.000-07:00

Awaits the dawn sets a moody feeling
It's not far from seeing the sun yet
Knowing that thousand years back
one died for us
it brings back emotional thoughts of missed loved ones
In the midst of preparation for my sister's wedding
she said a line that made a silence
"if only she was here"
My grandma, my love
often spoken of, and often missed
my mind's never stopped thinking
and my heart's never stopped loving
As a picture stood beside my bed,
I remember the words she so often speak
the smile, the touch and the laughter
till this day, I cry when I think
She was my loved one, she was my grandma
How I truly miss her

Edited: 12.30am

Once again, I hate not sleeping!!!!
Which I would force myself in few minutes
knowing that baybee's picking me up in the morning for mass
and a long day of shopping with her.
While she needs to get more shirts for work,
I'm awfully ashamed to realise only this morning
that I have a whole full hangers of Esprit clothes!
*bleh, some even with the tags*
So, by preventing myself from over spending
*which I know I could if I tried*
I would only head straight to where I need to find
and no browsing! I hate window shopping!
My sydney trip is in 2 months,
and besides the money saved already
I shouldn't stop saving!
But who am I kidding!
Avril will shop! not too much, but
JUST NICE!
nights out!

2006-04-12T22:14:00.000-07:00

I love....

1. Morning kisses from baybee
2. Easter stories with kiddos
3. A nice dinner after a long day at work
4. Supermarket shopping!
5. Coooking for baybee
and
6. knowing that the weekend's coming in a bit!

2006-04-12T00:19:00.000-07:00

I'm suffering from the lack of sleep symptoms
which I can hardly bare at times
Not because I want to, but my eyes can't seem to shut
My plan of a good massage was postponed today
but managed to iron baybee's clothes,
cook dinner for baybee while she steals a nap.
I'm spoiling my baybee before she gets busy at her new job
and yesh, like what she always say
"my belly's getting bigger cause you always feed me!"
Well, payback when the times your mum fed me, honey! *winks*
A short update of the pictures, and more coming...
As Weilian sings along on the player,
hopefully I get some sleep
cause baybee's sending me to work before she heads for her work!
Out and about.....
I miss Pickles and gossips....
Did I mention? We laughed about you that day.
Such amusement, it's such a pleasure to laugh
and thank the maker that we're not you in anyway.

2006-04-12T00:10:00.000-07:00

2006-04-09T17:00:00.000-07:00

For a loved one near my heart
There are many times we find ourselves lost within our means
When we often spoke of the happy times
we never realized what lies behind those smiles
Maybe we wasn't good enough or we didn't loved enough
What could have been changed or done
would we know till now?
Maybe understanding wasn't a word to describe nor feel
or trying to love aint enough to fill
It's hard to stop yet it's hard to try
Many might say time would heal and time would tell
no one knows except deep in us.
For some, running was an option, for another hurting
But for those who's honesty was a virtue,
we thank and keep.
We often speak about what love was really is, what it meant or what it felt
But when love failed, how do we start thinking what love is anymore.
I once asked a friend ' what quarrels and fights in relationships meant?'
A silence filled the answer.
I replied: ' Quarrels and fights are part of relationships,
it happened for a reason, not because anyone caused them.
Quarrels are trails that we all go through, bad or very bad
it test our ability to solve with our partners, it checks on our pride and trust,
our capability in talking things out, and solving them and not forgetting them.
But when talking things out aint even accomplished, break ups aint a running option,
they aint solving anything in the first place.
But to some others, breaking just means the time for building a relationship isn't right,
or another isn't ready enough. The word is enough.
So how ready are we? What is enough?
Honestly, only we ourselves know and feel.
I was once at my end, when I felt everything happened because of me
I blamed myself with every physical hurt I could cause myself with.
But who's got a better part of me, myself and people who loved me.
God showed me the truth, the lies and dishonesty one made, and shameless side of some,
and I thank him for it cause it has shown me the word 'enough'
for there wasn't a need to blame myself but them.
There's never a need for guilt treatments, what goes around comes around.
As one bestie would say ' A leopard never change its spots'
How true can that be when I wasn't the first for this honesty,
I was only one of them who saw through such a person.
And I'm out, never entering that road I was once accused of.
But, what's better of that road, I know my conscience is clear
and for others, their conscience wouldn't leave till the last breath.
Within our conscience, we look deep and hard
My dear friend, look deep and far
where would this heart sleeps, cry and laugh
where would this heart think, speak and feel
People often say heart feels and the mind speaks,
bring yourself up to speak your mind with your heart
It's hard we would all know, but there's no harm trying
Even if the heart points back to the old road, don't despair
It pointed for a reason, it pointed for comfort.
It doesn't mean we can't love another nor seek love with another
they only tell us we need to be ready as an individual, as a person
one to love with a wholesome heart, one to find love with a love on her own
Stand when you're ready, seek when you find, love when you can
We're all searching all over, for that perfect one
But remember, readiness, fate and time play a part.
As beautiful and patient your heart is, I know you'll find the right moment of love.
There's never a heart like yours, even a dark cloud could never be compared.
So my friend, as I type is, I hoping some strength of mine would bring those dark clouds away
comfort your heart, would stand there with my care.
From here, I end my words for you.
You already did what you could, let fate and time take care of the rest.
with love, Lala

2006-04-08T02:44:00.000-07:00

And so I moved...
and happy would I be
No affliation to another
that no one wishes to hear about
So passerbys, I'm glad how interested you are
cause I'm not taking any chance
in keeping you coming back for more
in knowing so much

And so, baybee and I had recapturing date like 8 months back
except for the fact that we're both proud owners
of the sleek samsung D820 and nokia 7610 for each of us
We're loving the sleek design and of course the size of the phone.
Have to upload those pictures taken by the phone soon!

And so, baybee and I have dinner plans to cook at home tomorrow
and maybe head for some drinks or two
For a fwen whom I missed
for the many fights you've been thru
you're never alone cause
people around you have been thru the same situation,
sadness, insecurity and emotional well being
find a way to talk, solve and accept each other
and not try to change the one you love where only you think is for the better
cause your partner is perfect the way she is
that's why you love her in the first place
*hugs*
I'll see you soon babe...

And so, Pickles has invited Lala to a shopping trip on Tue!
which I'm in such denial to say no shopping till sydney
yet, such a temptation to reject never could crossed my mind
especially when esprit comes into the picture
Yes baybee , I know you would sit by the side
and laugh at two gurlies having such indulgence with our shopping bags!

And so, 9 out of 10 people are laughing at you
where you often think is so fine
such maturity we see, in such a shameless way
Maybe shameless suits your lifestyle
cause you have proved your point
we all understand what you trying to prove
but... think again kiddos...
you haven't seen the real thing
you'll get your turn where the deal passes around
don't you know? This aint the first time it happened.
Oh... what a show, we all love to see...
be careful before it hits you

And so, Lala is happy watching the l word season 3
thanks for my dearie Chloe
Did I ever mentioned how much I love her dog
*pixz up soon!* xoxo

Till then...

*the L word indulgence continues*